Speechless .

today as I sat Indian style on the living room floor eating Cap'n Crunch Berries, watching Little Bear on Nick Jr, and fitted in my purple feetie jammies .. don't judge me lol .. I was checking in with my blogspot family. ya know reading every bodies thoughts, feelings, and vital information when Blog Award by Don at http://minusthebars.blogspot.com/ caught my attention. *if you haven't checked out his blog and clicked Follow, HOW ARE YOU LIVING LIFE?! seriously.*

anyway, I mosied my way on to his page and got immersed in reading his Beautifully written thoughts, unaware how in a few short seconds I would be left ...speechless. he took the time to have his daughter read through his blog list *list of blogs the writer takes special interest in and recommends to others* and write down the ones she liked. well me being a newbie to his eyes, I never expected to even be mentioned let alone given such a ... Mind Blowing compliment.

"I recently came across this young sista's blog through Traci and, let me tell you, she is pure FIYAH. I am a unapologetic lover of Assata Shakur, the way she expresses herself so vigilant and yet completely intelligent manner. I believe this sista to be a younger version of Assata, herself." - Don

may I quickly say, before the waterworks, that I am on cloud 9! I am Too Amazed, Happy, Humbled, Overjoyed, and Honored right now. all I could do, besides reading it multiple times as I was sure it would disappear from what I was convinced was a dream, was cry, laugh, jump up and down, and try to wipe my eyes faster than the tears could gush. I was close to the living room entertainment center and I'm accident prone lol. many thank you's to Don and his daughter and of course every last beautiful person that has taken the time to read my words, follow me, and talk to me personally. every last one of you means So much to me and because I know I can't find the words to describe how you make me feel, I won't even attempt.

just know, I LOVE YOU !

pennanddpaper.

It's Been Great Blogspot.

I'm nearing 100 followers...

*bites nail*

AND I'M ECSTATIC !!

*spins around in computer chair laughing and squealing*

when I first started blogging it seemed like getting even one follower was going to be a challenge, what to write, what audience to appeal to, be myself or be commercial, and any number after was just going to be luck. nearing 100 is truly a blessing. even more exciting than I imagined it to be. I guess its true what they say about having no expectations because this is frickin awesome!!

*huge smile plastered on face*

I have met some of the Greatest people and read from the Greatest minds! if I could just live near a few of you, ahhh it'd be too awesome to be legal! (:

many people start off blogging to share their life, express their feelings, and so forth but while we all start off for a reason and with a purpose, you can walk away with so much more IF you open yourself to anything and everyone. with the honorable privilege of meeting amazing people, I have found myself through my blog and I just simply, from the bottom of my heart want to Thank Everyone that has chosen to take the journey with Me and take the time to get to know The Real Me as well. (Facebook) it has been such a wonderful experience and I couldn't have asked for more by just being accepted and appreciated by you guys!

All My Love,

Gwen .

p.s.

if you've been wondering where all the regular posts have gone, this month I along with some other special folks have decided to participate in April Poetry Month where for the full month of April it will be a poem a day. don't worry though my loves, the posts will be back after April... possibly a few throughout the month. going to stay with me? (:

The Love You Deserve .

I love when people doubt me, misread me, and disregard me as nothing more than some conceited, superficial, high maintenance chick. Why? Because the shocked looks on their faces and the loss of words is the silent victory when I lose the slang and drop the Ebonics and speak with my ever expanding vocabulary and thorough understanding of each and every sentence I form.

What people fail to realize, although I'm randomly always ranting about whatever comes to mind and known to do my share of not so smart things, I am a very intelligent, well informed, type chill person. We can shoot the breeze about anything under the sun from real world issues to caramel vs. carmel. Which is why I love Blogger !

I know a lot of you are into Facebook, Twitter, and like me MySpace but I actually prefer Blogger over any social Network. Why? Because its based on opinions, thoughts, and feelings which are more important than the same ole half naked defaults and "so cool" rhyming updates and random tweets. Its getting to know a real person through their personal expression of words and I digg that.

I LOVE ALL MY FOLLOWERS ! ♥

new and old. you guys are amazing! if any of you have been to my MySpace page you will see under who id like to meet it says all my followers on Blogger. i respect and have so much love for all of you. every last one of your creative, unique writing styles and your different and artistic opinions and outlooks. it humbles me greatly to know so many people i have never met think my writing is interesting enough to keep updated on. thank you, thank you, thank you ! i don't say it enough but I'm definitely going to start. you guys are never overlooked or disregarded around these parts. ( :

pennanddpaperr.

Can All The Real Women Please Stand Up .

Madd Shout Out To My Girl Robyn Latice !!!
faithful follower, awesome blogger, and just dope ass female . (rare)


"Thanks for the award love. !! " ( : FOLLOW HER !!



aite getting to the blogging point ... speaking of getting to the point, i love that song by Marques Houston and Tank. AND Marques Houston and new wife look really cute together. ♥

but yea ... lol

these last few days i have come to the realization that bitches ain't shit. geez Gwen are you just now realizing this? nah. not at all. i just don't usually "go with the crowd" on topics like this, or topics in general until i can speak from experience. but like i said, these last few days have definitely made me a believer. Ive come in contact with two or three ignorant bitches in my time and even had to literally slap the shit out of a couple BUT, i never just felt the need to say the words, bitches ain't shit because in my personal opinion all females aren't bitches AND not every female is the same.

bitch is the new "nigga" . alot of females play around and call their other female friends this word and are quick to jump mad when they are called the same by the opposite sex or another female. while some females call themselves this word like its what their mamas named them, others refrain from it considering it offensive. why everybody feels the need to be the "baddest bitch" i have no idea but hey! whatever floats their boats. my point is, there are women who have "bitchy" tendencies and then there are some REAL BITCHES ! them brawds that are better suited for dog houses instead of real houses.

there is a HUGE problem when people from the same sex cant be friends because of the immaturity, ignorance, and plain cattiness that is shown effortlessly almost immediately between females. its always he said/she said, pointing of the finger, and fighting IF its not just a bunch of "barking" that usually ends in people wanting to apolo"lie" because in due time, its guaranteed to happen all over and that apology wont mean a damn thing. what is the problem? why are we giving men a reason to shake their heads at us and call us bitches and say with a straight face that we ain't shit. when have guys ever quit kicking it with other guys because of petty nothing ? never. they know how to squash shit not harbor it. females don't even hang with females. waht the hell ? what happen to girl power and sticking together. have we all forgotten how precious we are and how the world needs us. not to mention the way we should respect and love ourselves regardless of anybody else doing the same. we are the givers of life, the role models for future generations, the gift god created for man, the independent strong woman in every single family household. we couldn't even do the damn right thing back when God created us. Eve just had to eat from that flippin tree ! greedy bitch ! see what i mean. even a young woman has to call another woman a bitch from time to time. pathetic. not me, no. not you, if you ever just had to say it, because sometimes it really does have to be said BUT the fact that we all have really came across one or two or ten! that have really just needed to be called one. so what do we do? we get our shit together. quit expecting every nigga to pay our bills and buy us our hearts desire because of what we are giving them in between our legs. every female has it and there will always be someone out there just aiming to please a nigga only to keep him. if i was a dude and i could get a whole lot of something for nothing, i would be on it. psh, and they all love you when they feeling good. go out and get a job, go to school or back to school, work on having your own car, your own place, your own everything. you will appreciate it more and those are things nobody can take from you unless you let them. we have to quit making guys are number one priorities and focus on loving ourselves. really getting to know our strengths and weaknesses, taking better care of our bodies and minds, reading books, art, studying different cultures, treating our bodies like the temples they are, quit belittling ourselves and lowering our standards and expectations for the men we get involved with because we want somebody. key word : WANT. we don't need them. every man wants and needs a GOOD WOMAN just like we want and need GOOD MEN in our lives. fuck the practice losers, when we find HIM we will know in our hearts and automatically know what to do to keep him and get him because we are intelligent people. too many times women are looking for men and just people to validate them, why ? if you cant look in the mirror and tell yourself you are beautiful flaws and all and that you love you, you definitely don't need anyone.(read my Perfection blog) and also, REAL IMPORTANT ! we have got to quit blaming every guy for the last ones mistakes ! i cant stress this enough ladies. it is okay to be a little guarded and skeptical because you have a right to know what you are getting yourself into but, you cant forever try making every guy that comes along pay for some loser that isn't thinking shit about what he did and damn sure ain't having a hard time moving on. not every guy is the same just like every woman isn't the same. we have got to be confident in ourselves that way we wont be so insecure with future relationships. be real, sometimes its not what he said or did that made you quit talking to him its the fact that for that split second he reminded you of the last dude and you got scared. its cool. we have all been there but we have got to quit or we'll end up losing out.

now after saying all that, i stand up and applaud ALL the REAL independent women in the world. that really are doing it for themselves and rolling with the punches and coming out smiling. i know i have two of the strongest, intelligent, beautiful, African American queens in my life that are the true definition of independent, classy women. they set great examples and i am so so so blessed to call them my sister and mother. because of them i am forever working at becoming a better woman. ♥

pennanddpaper .